ADDICTION hurts..

ADDICTION... the word itself is scary, scary not in horror sense but scary because it gives us scary feeling of how will i survive if someday i don't get the thing i'm addicted to or i'm used to.. at such times your worst nightmare is getting departed from the thing or person we are addicted to!!
If its a thing then the wounds of getting departed soothes early without any marks on mind or heart but if its a person to whom you were addicted then even a decade is not enough to sooth that wound n even if it soothes the marks of the wounds stays forever on your heart n mind, the marks may vanish from your mind as the time passes but nothing can rub those marks from your heart.

sometimes we make mistakes in selecting right person for us, many times we end up with fake sweet talkers and loose right ones. people this days are so confused in selecting right person that they just end up with wrong fake ones. selecting right person have become a gamble today, here the opponent is so sharp that he ll not even give u single such reason which can help you identifying him. This days love has become a game, game of winning others heart n breaking them; the more hearts you break the more XPs ie experience you get , this game gives so bad addiction that people keeps on breaking hearts just to soothe their own heart.
This is chain actually where A breaks heart of  B and to soothe his own heart B breaks heart of C so that he can forget the pain given by A   !!!

Here the victim or the one who is left alone feels guilty for giving chance to such person. Sometimes we have to pass through such phases of life where we don't even know 'whom we love n to whom we think we love'
Confused??? i'l explain u.. sometimes we think that v love some1 but its not actually love but our infatuation for that person.

sometimes we just try to avoid people who love us n to whom v don't.. and a moment comes wen v feel lyk breaking friendship wid them becoz the way such people stare at u and care for u n tok wid u n flirts wid u feels irrittating because in past that person was the one on whom  u had crush so u dont want ur past to affect ur presence. so finally a time comes wen u just cant bear anymore n stop talking to them wic hurts them lyk hell becz wen person who means everything to u dont even talk to u, feels lyk ur existance in the world is of no use better u leav dis world. Thinking about all such things from their point of view v forgive them n mutually decide to start with a new relationship which would be only up to FRIENDSHIP.

Now, the main problem begins.. initially u feel that the person has changed n is just thinking of u as just a friend n to make u believe they says that they are committed wid some1 n comes closure to u n starts flirting again n dis tym u start lyking dat person but ur not sure about it..
After couple of weeks that person discloses the truth saying that he/she wasnt committed n lied just to come close to u n become ur besty.. this hurts u but nt much.

After spending so much time together n inspite that person lied u, u start lyking that person n he/she becomes part of ur lyf n dis time its really serious kinda lykings becoz u have been wid that person for long time n know each other verry well, but still u havent yet told that person about ur lykings towards him/her.
he/she asks u several tyms about ur lykings bt u say NO al the tym n stick upon a thing that u lyk somebdy else.

After some couple of months u suddnly come across a news that he/she is already having partner who was out of town.. n the person uv startd lyking had nobody in town to be wid so he/she just wanted u to be wid dem till the time his/her partner who is out of town comes back into the town n suddenly ur left alone.

U all of sudden start feel guilty for everything, guilty for giving him/her a chance, guilty for felling in love with him/her  again, guitly for beleaving all  the lies n best one was "i cant leave widout you"   dis lie really hurts u n even can make nybdy fell in love.. now u are at the situation where u cant forget all thos lies n ur just addicted to that person n just cant forget him/her at any cost n want back them in ur lyf n also want all dos things back that was between u both, bt nw its impossible n u just have to tell ur heart that "whatever happens is for good cause" ...

In the end u have to think positively that, good u both are no more together or rather say ur away from the one to whom u loved once oR he/she loved u oR u both once loved each other becoz u both had no future so better move on..
He/She have alrdy moved on but somewere u havent becoz u still feel that he/she still feels for u.. Its not the fact but still somewer in heart u cant just forget dat person so u start xpecting that even they shudnt forget u bt as v all knw things never happns d way v wish them to ..............  u just keep hoping that one day all the memories related to that person lyk d way he/she stared at u,    the way he/she said 'babu' ,     the way he/she used to ask 'y din u had ur dinner yet'      the way he/she used to scold u on ur mistakes n say 'stupid cant u take care of urself' etc etc etc....   u just end up hoping that someday u'll forget all this things n will move on n get rid of their  ADDICTION.