n it hurts even more when you come to know that the somebody who occupied space which was desired by you is nobody else but the same person who once essayed the role of best not just best but closest friend in your life, but has gone away from your life just because you both loved the same person n it was impossible for u both to continue as bestys because the person who used to make u smile with his presence the same person now pokes into your eyes whenever comes into your sight.
It becomes really unbearable when u have to see the person who ditched u with the person u loved d most, that too for most of the day..but still you cant help it n have to bear them person with a big 'fake' smile on your face..
i cant believe that anybody can be so cruel that even after knowing how much your besty loves some1 still you start dating the very same person n don't even let your besty know about it n one day suddenly you get the news from other people regarding dating between your besty n your love..
if that was not all.. suddenly one day u receive a news from one of ur friend that the person u love; by mistake sends a text to one of ur friend saying
"good ni8 swtheart.. muuuuaaaaaaah miss u.. take care n kal 6 baje uthati hu"
n tells your friend to whom this msg was delivered by mistake that
"plz plz plz don't tell any one about this msg, it was bymistake sent to u" ...........
n wen she was askd by the same person to whom msg was delivered bymistake.. the rly recvd was
"i cant tell u his name"
now what the 'f' this means mahn!! what would a rational mind think after reading such text..
if it was not enough this thing was hidden from me by my love who is also my besty n who shares everything with me, but dint share this thing which added further pain..
i'am not at all jealeous of my friend that he took my love away, but the thing is he promised me that he would help me get my love as v 3 where bestys n shared everything with each other so he knew each n everything about us, our lyks dislyks everything... which he was suppose to use for me to get her but he did it for himself n grabbed my love, n i lyk a fool din even notice that my love is been grabbed away by my besty..
im really scared of that day when i'll come to know the truth .. truth that is going to ruined me from within, truth that is going to make my heart bleed.. this truth is nothing but that they both are together n are committed to each other!! but m even more scared of the day when my love will be ditched by the person whom she thinks loves him.. because i know him better as we used to be bestys someday so i know what kinda person he is n how good is his past records ..
i tryd alot to explain her about what kinda person he is but she is not at all ready to listen to me.. shes just blind in his love n dat bastard has no feelings for her, he is just playing with her feelings thats it...
her behaviour has changed alot towards me this days which really hurts me alot n makes me cry lyk anything, whenever i think of her or see her images on fb or in my cell my tears just cant stop overflowing... this days i dont even lyk to listen romantic songs instead i prefer sad songs...because now iv got to know that ders nothig lyk love in this world because if it was their than she would have been with me...
i dont know what will happen with me when she ll be ditched by him .. she wont be able to bear that pain n worst will be i wont be able to see her crying that way...... all this things which are directly or indirectly related to her turns my eyes wet.............. sometimes i feel lyk stop talking to her but then she starts crying in front of me which makes me also cry, n even confuses me if i'am so much important to her that my silence can make her cry than y the hell she dont listen to me n try to undstand that i really care for her n m not asking her to go away from him for my selfish motto....
i dont know what should i do now.. im really fed up of thinking all this.. i cant even avoid all this !!
i dont undstand y the hell God is doing all this to me...!!
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